I'm not doing this cause I want to let you know . I'm doing this cause I have no one to talk to , No one to tell . I really dontknow what to do . If I did this , I would hurt the other party . If I did that, I would hurt this party. What am I suppose to do Lord ? I feel like a mean person inside already. But is there anything I can do . Pray I suppose . Prayer IS a powerful weapon. Thank you God for giving this powerful weapon to help us to communicate with You . Telling someone who knows both parties wont work.
Dear Ellie, Sometimes I feel annoyed that you donttell us things. And Gladys feels that way too . We just feel so left out, You and Felicia would know while both of us dont . Have you thought about others feelings too ? You never really cared about what others think and feel. Leaving us at Orchard just like that, not going Eefaye's house, Writing on your blog likethat, posting all the bad stuff about Crescent, not even a single bit about how you loved those days we went high. Is that how much we mean to you ? Are we That worthless that we had to be the bad extreme ? I know you have fun at resonate but I feel hurt at your words. The way you say you dontlike G1 and stuff likethat. Have you ever ask yourself if you have thought about others? I know at times you are nice and stuff like that, but sometimes I am really pissed with you. I am happy that you have come to love Resonate and stuff likethat. About the Reyna part, its just one person. Just because of oneperson does not represent the whole class does it? People just like Gladys and is fascinated by how she speaks, is there a problem? And you had to put in your blog so that all of your resonate people can see it while you go talking behind the backs of GeeOne. Is this how a Christian should be? Is this how You should be? I am doing this cause I dont really dare talk in your face and tell you that cause I dontwant you to hate me and think that I really dontcare about your feelings. Have you think about if Gladys saw what you wrote, will she be happy? Have you even remember all the fun times we had? Or is there only Resonate in your heart. I know there is no one I can talk to cause I dontwant ending up hurting both parties. I am really hoping you would take a step back and ask yourself if you had really, really thought about others feelings throughout this year. Those incidents I mentioned werent only the ones, there were many.I am sorry for all the mean things I have done. I pray that God will forgive me for all the sins I have done throughout the year.
I am sorry.
Guess thats it. Tomorrow is The Day. Throughout this resting period, I have not really thought about the results until today. I believe that God will provide and maybe even failing is one of His Plans. At DG this week , I have learnt that Knowing about God is different then Knowing God. Have I all this years only Know about God and not Know God fully ? Have I really know what he really wants for me ?
Dear Felicia,
Stay strong alrights. Like what Ellie said, God gives and take away. I know I aint good with words. I am glad you are doing fine now. /
Loves
